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*I do not want to sound so pessimist but I loved that poem so much. As it kind of told me my kind of fate after years of travelling. No. Actually travelling couldn't be enough to explain. It is more like "looking for". So here it is as it is written centuries ago. So I am not alone with myself even the guy is dead now. Yet his message makes me calmer. No need to try another city, another human. Everything is so same. "Time is a flat circle";
You said, "I will go to another land, I will go to another sea.
Another city will be found, a better one than this.
Every effort of mine is a condemnation of fate;
and my heart is -- like a corpse -- buried.
How long will my mind remain in this wasteland.
Wherever I turn my eyes, wherever I may look
I see black ruins of my life here,
where I spent so many years destroying and wasting."
You will find no new lands, you will find no other seas.
The city will follow you. You will roam the same
streets. And you will age in the same neighborhoods;
and you will grow gray in these same houses.
Always you will arrive in this city. Do not hope for any other --
There is no ship for you, there is no road.
As you have destroyed your life here
in this little corner, you have ruined it in the entire world.
Constantine P. Cavafy
*Searching about my life purpose.
*"How to describe yourself? Indeed, it's a challenging task. Usually I find it especially hard at every work interview, because you want to put yourself in a good light, but still not brag, show some of your weak sides, but not the worst of them? According to some psychologist and philosophies people constantly write and rewrite their own story to fit their current situation and new experiences.
Telling your own story is therefore a fine tuned an art that will define how you perceive yourself and who you are. And also, how others in the end will perceive you. This is one of the reasons, my friend, that not everyone should write a biography about themselves. And maybe also why some people attend courses about how to handle a work interview." -Marianne Aasen
*Most recently, this is how I am; think of a table. Call this table as a world, universe, existence or whatever other words connected within my presence. I say, while I am sitting next to the table, one side of it has informations like Gods, beliefs, black & white, good & bad, love, hate, memories, passions, dreams etc. Another side of the table is emptiness, a black hole, reality of overrated God's realms, core of the pain. I am going forwards and backwards in between these two. Simpler, I am like a weaving machine. In between being agnostic or deist. Therefore, groundless and unanchored. Thinking of why suicide is always hard for a person who has no reason to survive.
Why I’m on Couchsurfing
*I use to Couchsurf back in old days while hitchhiking but I had couple opportunities to host people. When I will live in my own house or with my friends, then I will be able to host people (does not matter religion, colour, gender or age..) so I can get closer one step ahead in my inner journey. I hope I can say it is a journey. So far not, actually.
*Too many amazing experiences and couple terrible experiences too. In addition, a very special hitchhiking fella, Sebastian, came back to Istanbul just to visit me. After stayin here for two days he turned back. I can't believe. First time a human, took a long road just to visit me.
Videography. Analyzing movies visually and on editing.
Chatting with people in a digital screen.
I enjoy to meet people from internet and meet them in reality; https://www.facebook.com/confusionwillbe
Music, Movies, and Books
Any music which successes to enter my heart with its melody, any festival movie which has the most unique experience of montage and cinematography. Anybooks that are giving me a feeling of watching a deep, well shot, good quality story.
*Bab'ı Aziz *Amak'ı Hayâl *Enter the Void *True Detective *Machinarium OST *Jesper Kyd *Clint Mansell *Boards of Canada *Carbon Based Life Forms
*Gaspar Noe *Nic Pizzolatto *Lars Von Trier *Alejandro Jodorowsky *Chris Nolan
One Amazing Thing I’ve Done
*Quit my job in one moment. Meet with a foreigner guy and follow his path. Hitchhiking with the same guy. Trusting to somebody for a long road taken. Staying outside without money, only backpack and trekking through villages. Travelling 3 countries with 100 dollars in total (by Couchsurfing and hitchhiking, all visa and everything else included)
*Having a baby.
*Living on my own room/flat even thou it is rented room. I mean I needed that you know. Twenty fucking five years later I could taste that.
Teach, Learn, Share
I need to learn a lot, not ready to teach.
But so far, I can teach English language
and video editing. (Particularly)
What I Can Share with Hosts
My thoughts about life, friendship and my ears. I really work hard inside of me, not to loose my CS spirit. I freezed my account many times cause of thinking people lost the spirit. The spirit I had first years of using this... If you are honest CS'er, please be welcome. When you look to someone, if the first thing you realize that this is a human, not boy/girl, not black/white, not young/old, not intellectual/naif, then I love you man! You are my man! I will always share half of my bread with you! At all costs! As I said, I fucking repeat. You can have beer in my home and you can also pray in my home. As long as you are not drawing walls and do behave like a normal human being, be as confortable as in your mother's house! And yes, we are raping our guests in our culture. We beat well enough, rape and cook them if we are out of food. I am sorry. It is just culture you know.
Countries I’ve Visited
Bulgaria, Croatia, Georgia, Oman, Russian Federation, Serbia, United Arab Emirates
Countries I’ve Lived In
Bosnia and Herzegovina, Turkey, Ukraine