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In search for the understandings of fragile relationships
I have lost a friend that had given me so much sweet memories that I'm here in Korea from Singapore, to hope that I can find her after she disappeared about a year ago.
Life have changed, after that.
We are all given an instinct of love and care for all beings. But we eventually lose this instinct to the world we create for our selves.
- A Perfect World -
Achievement becomes our mechanical instinct since the day we receive education.
We strive to be the best amongst our own beings until we neglect our gift from nature.
The instinct of LOVE and CARE that we have given has so much to do with the natural well being of mental health which carries a vital role in all the things we do for this life that we own. Unfortunately, we abuse this principle of life with the intelligence that have given us, to build a better life for our own beings, into building a perfect work for our selves.
Everything we have done has led to our own destruction.
We are always carried away by desires for perfection which lead us to abuse our intelligence and all the other natural instincts that were once give to us to stay UNITED and IMPROVE our own beings.
More and more of us will become extreme in the beliefs we have. This will contribute to a significant rise of emotional tensions in our society that will eventually bring us to a situation of ugly competitions to achieve satisfaction in our minds.
In order to fulfill our own achievements and dreams we’re unscrupulous in every aspect of our lives.
For over 36 years of my life I’ve had so much guilt and regret. I only realized recently that I sincerely seek for forgiveness.
If I could have a second chance to change what I have done I’d be able to serve everyone even better.
I really neglected the best friend in my life, for which I hope that I will be able to be given a second chance in order to really take good care of her.
I sincerely apologize for all the things that I have done all this time; following the mechanical instinct from the majorities that have led me nowhere in this life I own. I had never practiced the instinct that had given me, only to be self-centered by chasing all the creations of my own kind which were only fascinations within my own mind.
I had lost a Korean friend which I cherished so much in my heart. No one else in the world can feel how much I missed her. I really hope I can see her once again, and tell her how sorry I am. I found her with the help of the local police, and get to meet her
parents. But she was out of the country!
She did not even comes back home for the new year.
Both parents do not say where she is, but they are both very friendly.
Her mother put me on the phone with her and I realised that she's still
wanted to be left alone.
Is o.k.! I just disappointed with myself for not doing the right thing in the begining.
There must be things that she need to stay focus without any burden.
I know how she feel, and understand why she do this to me and her parants for the time being.
Is just part of the way we grow up in our life. The environment we been through confuse the way our mind developed along the way.
She will understand some day, that people are still the most important in our life.
We just have to wait for that day to come.
I'm very sad.
But I can't give up the people that I love, in this only life that I have.
I love her so much, and I pray that she's fine.
Love is all about sacrifices. It cannot be an achievement like all the things we do in our life.
She did mentioned that she's not in Korea, over the phone.
It is the way they are in Korea!
Not because they had someone else but they just want to fulfil their plans, which they had tried so hard to come so far.
Many did go into a relationships with extremely strong passions, but back up when they finally awake that it is not the way they want it to be from the beginning.
This is how the mind developed in the cities like what we had now in Singapore.
Yes, they will fall in love again because of emotions. But they will not be burden by making EMOTIONAL DECISIONS to affects all their hard work that they have done. They will not feel selfish or guilt, because the environment are promoting it although the government is not.
If everyone in this world can give a little thought of the people around us by loving them the way they love us. Nobody will have any chance to feel lonely and end up fighting so hard to gain independence in order to
protect themselves from any harm.
We were all confused by the things people do around us. Especially living in the city.
People we love, were confused and made different choices in their live.
And it happened to us, too.
If only we were to be very good friends from the beginning, things will not end up this way.
We always look far beyond, for any important decisions we made in order to choose the best path for our life. That's the way we are being brought up in the city.
And it really hurts a lot of people around us.
Perfections has taken over our instincts.
And it is not leading us to anywhere better.
I still believed that there's always a reason for things to happen.
Most people don't look back on their journey, but I always do.
We had thrown many things away in our path in order to be able to stay
focus in this challenging environment, so as to reach our desired and our goals.
Love & care for others is the instinct that were once given to us, only that we are being carried away so much on the creations that inspired us from our very own kind in creating a perfect world of our own.
Perfections had taken over our instincts because it satisfied our mind so much that it makes us repeat our same mistakes without any second
thoughts for others.
If only we know how our mind developed from the mistakes that we had done.
Life will always be more complicated then ever.
Are we the most intelligent of all on earth as we always thought?
Had we improve our life and others from all the creations we had made?
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