CURRENT MISSION

I am on a mission to enjoy my life and live it to the fullest. I want to check out the rave scene in other places.

ABOUT ME

I live for adventure and I live for experience. Friends and family have always been number one to me. The people in my life make all the tough times worth it, and all the good times ones to remember. I was never one to care much for the mainstream, it bores me. I am more intrigued by the freaks and weirdos that walk this planet earth, lol. I am drawn to people with creative minds that think outside the box and don't follow what others tell them is cool. I am fueled by the energy of individuals. I am constantly changing, constantly evolving, and constantly working towards something new and better. I have experienced dramatic change and grown up so much over the last couple of years or so since I have been on my own it is unbelievable. I am not your typical 21 year old. My life has been one hell of a journey filled with crazy days, sleepless nights, and wild adventures. With all the reckless mishaps and close encounters, I am thankful to have made it this far. I have finally achieved what I so desperately wanted for all these years and that is my independence and the freedom to express myself however I want. FREEDOM What you see is what you get. I am a very stubborn girl with an extremely free spirit. Take it or leave it. I am reluctant to change myself for anything or anyone, so quit trying! I refuse to hide myself behind a superficial plastic mask or play dress up in a phony costume in order to fulfill some meaningless requirements of someone else's idealistic image of how you and they think I should be. I am from Pleasantville. New York. Ironic isn't it? Just another little catholic school girl, but this one's with a twist. I ventured off to california... In the movie, everything is seen in black and white. Right and wrong. There is no outside way of viewing it. There is no reading between the lines and seeing outside the box. But you know what? Haha, there is. I never fit in and was always "different" So then I started doing things a different way. Looking at things a different way. Expressing myself in a different way. I said fine you dont accept me, then look at me, look at my pink hair. I am different! I remeber gettting in trouble in high school one time. My principal was yelling at me because I had pink hair and was wearing all black clothes. He told me if i didnt change I would not be allowed to graduate. I didnt get it, I was wearing a red hoodie. I asked a people later and I found out he was color blind! Conformaty, conformaty, conformanty! FUCK THAT!! That is for the weak minded, the easy way out. I do things because I want to. I have quite a few piercings and a tattoo in my inner lip that says vicious. What can I say, I like to decorate! I cannot stand self absorbed people. People who think they are better than the rest. They don't amuse me and are not worth knowing. I like to feel free!! Nothing beats wearing a long skirt and no panities, try it. Feel the fresh air, embrace the breeze!! I could never be just another girl. I cannot stand it when people pass judgement on somebody else. Its sad because they will never really get it. My new years resolution? Stop waiting and stop procrastinating! Just do it! If I want something and/or there needs to be change, I need to make it happen! In 20 years I would like to see myself Filthy RICH!! Hold on though, not rich with money or material possessions, but with happiness, love, and success. I see myself making a change. I see myself making a difference in the world. Create the change I want to see and sending a message.

PHILOSOPHY

My fantasy world is a sparkly daydream fabricated inside the cold hollow walls of a dimly lit cave where demons lay sleeping, crafted within the tender soft pink tissues of a fragile young mind belonging to a beautiful little girl who forgot how to smile... Broken... The lonely trails that led you here are cold, abandoned, and haunted. The sun never shines here and your shallow breath escapes your pursed lips in thick clouds of steamy hot smoke. The sides of the windy narrow paths are sprinkled in blood and littered with the remaining fragments of countless broken skulls. Shattered pieces of false hope, broken promises, and forgotten memories lay scattered alongside this desolate road. Once an intricate spiderweb of precious lucid dreams, this enchanted fairytale has now become entangled in the razor sharp teeth of a blood curdling nightmare. Underneath the filth lies mutilated layers of broken skin, sewn together with the delicate stitches of see through delusions. She cowers beneath a hard shell of decaying corpses and broken bone. Withering weak wrists tremble and extend towards the sky. Thin brittle fingertips beckon, forever scratching the tarnished dull surface of a decrepit rusty cage. She hides her little body tucked away behind cobwebs in the dusty corners. The soft padded walls of my impeccable daydream are plastered in pink feathers and a million shiney disco balls hang down in rows from the ceiling.Favorite Movies:Sexy naked girls all dolled up in red lipstick with little black spiders crawling in their hair dance around the empty rooms so graciously.. fragile girly figures holding crippled skeletons in their arms. Silky satin stars cascade in streams like waterfalls down from their moonlit bodies. When it rains, it pours, and only when you tell them to, do they allow buckets of glitter to pour from the sky. You can hardly see your own reflection in the little pieces of broken glass you found on the filthy floors inside dimly lit hallways, but you can always hear the tormented voices cry, begging you to follow. An illusionary fairyland filled with sunshine and glitter. Candy coated kisses, poisonous death wishes, and black satin bedsheets crawling in lies.

Interests

Two things in life that truly make me happy are music and just hanging out with friends. I love the energy sunshine refuels me with and the feeling of complete freedom experienced when swimming naked in natural bodies water like oceans and lakes. I enjoy going to shows, raves, festivals and concerts. I am always ready for roadtrips, traveling, exploring new places and meeting new people. I have a craving for knowledge and love learning. I love living. But when I do take the time to sit and think about it, I could care less where we are really going or the exact destination. I don't care how long it takes to get there or how many times we have to stop along the way. Its all about the journey. One thing that truly matters and makes all the difference in the world is the company I surround myself with and the real friends I have. I learn something from every person i meet. From all life experiences I learn valuable lessons.

• coloring
• piercings
• concerts
• festivals
• dancing
• raves
• clothing
• movies
• reading
• traveling
• music
• boxing
• swimming
• lakes

One Amazing Thing I’ve Done

Burning man