CURRENT MISSION Early retirement :) ABOUT ME iLove to smile, making people happy, sharing all till my last drop, travelling, dancing with a good music and recently frisbee. iLike pubs, clubs, night activities, trips. iCan communicate in "English, German, Russian, Turkish" and little in "Czech and Ukrainian". Hey, I also learned some Polish rude words :)) PHILOSOPHY I am a leaf front of the wind. Nothing to lose, nothing to win. Happiness was a nice story sang in bard tales. Born, grew, died. Last travel to misery, I'm a leaf front of the wind.. Semper fidelis. Faith was a feature. Seen as a mistake. Became a sickness. But still, stupidly, semper fidelis.. Persona non grata. Got kicked, badly threatened, mostly hated, lastly banished. Me the persona non grata. Veritas. A life, spent to search most grieving reasons of lies. Kill me, but don't lie. Hate me but only veritas.. Respice finem. How many days did you think of your losses? Ever had that torturing minutes while waiting in hospital? Looking into your loved one's eyes when s/he is becoming bald for multi operations? Ever tried to smile into someone's eyes when you both know s/he is dying? Can you dare to hold his/her hands in his/her last seconds with unseen tears?.. Can you look into his/her death body?.. Can you forget that eyes if SoB people didn't let you close them?? Ever gave the bad new of death to anyone's kids while looking into their eyes?.... Death is inevitable, but forgetting?.. How many seconds did it take to decide throwing all your past to garbage with someone? How many days would you remember your breaking up minutes? Ever became insomniac of never ending nightmares? Ever felt your heart heavier then you can hold? Keys are hidden somewhere in the ends. You may keep pushing them deep.. But I, Respice finem.. Save the last bullet for yourself.