I am Britt.

Until very recently I've always felt that if I was truly myself I would somehow offend everyone around me. I guess that I never really felt like I fit in or was really understood. So I did what most people do, hid my emotions and feelings until I would explode and be utterly emotionally destroyed. Like a dam that had burst wide open I would be emotionally released.... but at the cost of then putting every fucking piece back together again, because emotionally stopped up was the only way I felt normal.

I was so emotionally attached to my stress=rage pattern that it took months to let it go. The trust and friendship of my amazing W helped me to learn how to control myself and to have accountability for my actions.

As it turns out I am actually loving and nice and happy when I am not constantly weighed down by my stress and accepting everyone else's stress. I started to shake off all of my old habits and created a new life for myself one that made me happy. Which in turn made W happy, Which made me happy and so on and so forth.

So after 1 year of work to better my self and my life I am about to start teaching my hooping skills to others, 30 lbs lighter and have been able to mold my life into what I want, and take responsibility for all the times it's not.

(/mōld/a hollow container used to give shape to molten or hot liquid material (such as wax or metal) when it cools and hardens.)

Sorry, but I was checking the dictionary to find a synonym for mold because it sounded so plain. Then I saw the actual definition of mold and it is actually exactly the precise way I feel about what I do to control my emotions...

I do mold my life everyday by giving the hard rules about how I will let myself feel. until I let my emotions cool down so I can see the true form it takes. Only then can I decide the true nature of the feeling and why I have it.

SO I am a little strange, but in a good way. I see things, the beauty and pain in people. I guess you could say it's not that I "see" things, but I do look at people , and they are very easy to read. It used to make me want to hide, But now that I control the creation of the rules and norms, I control what people I let affect or effect me, I am not a door mat where people can dump feelings.

I am enjoying myself and my existence for the first time ever and I really like it. I still have doubts sometimes but then I remember... everything could have been worse ;)

Why I’m on Couchsurfing

I want to meet the people of the world, in the world, and I want them to meet me!

Interests

I love spending time at home cooking, playing magic the gathering, reading, watching movies. My passion is Hooping, when it's nice out I will hoop for hours a day. I live in Minnesota so to help keep the winter blues away this year I've decided to teach Hoop classes!! I am so excited to be able to help the hoop community grow and keep myself sane at the same time :)

• beauty
• cooking
• baking
• vegetarian
• vegan
• yoga
• movies
• reading
• magic
• blues

Music, Movies, and Books

My music tastes are really determined by my emotions and feelings at the time I am listening. I find myself to be very sensitive to music and its output, I feel like music is very magical. Right now my favorite song is "Ugly Boy by Die Antwoord I like the beat and it's sweet in a black comedy kind of way.

MOVIES!! I love movies all kinds...Tho I am a big baby when it comes to horror...For real, I spent half the time when I watched MAMA peaking through fingers to make sure it was safe, because closing my eyes didn't seem like enough protection???
Its way to hard to start thinking about my favorites, so I am just going to go to my movie collection and pick at random 4 movies to give you an idea of what I like.........(for real I did this)and I picked... True Blood season 4, X2 x-men united, Scrooged, and Strange Wilderness-

Books: This year I've been reading and Listening to a lot of Biography's and Historical non-fiction. I really liked "A nation laid bare: The Gypsy Rose Lee story" and "Louisa May Alcott: the woman behind little women"
I also read like 4 of the Southern Vampire Mystery books this summer, just for some trashy fun :)

One Amazing Thing I’ve Done

Survived

Teach, Learn, Share

Hooping, Yoga, Conversation

What I Can Share with Hosts

Treats, laughter, Vegetarian cooking skills, Vegan baking skills, Hooping, my generally sweet demeanor and craftiness.

Countries I’ve Visited

Austria, Canada, England, Germany, Mexico