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  • 7 Références
  • Fluent in English; learning French, Portuguese, Spanish
  • 52, Male
  • Membre depuis 2011
  • Engineer
  • Overly, life, mistakes
  • De Somewhere in the US!!!
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À propos de moi

CURRENT MISSION

Lose the weight I added while my right foot was injured.

Get a job in VA so that I can live in my own home and be with my family.

ABOUT ME

Aug 11, 2017

Hi. Well, my charm seems to have struck out again. I had made a friendship with someone on FB. It was purely platonic. We had had a few conversations. I had always been kind, polite, etc. Today she unfriended me. No explanation. My guess is that when a girl is young and pretty and guys are kissing her feet to win her attention that guys are a commodity. I feel sad. When her Dad died I offered her words of kindness. I never asked for anything in return. At least I had never met face to face and hadn't started a face-to-face friendship. I still feel sad though. I thought we had made a friendship at some level.

There was another girl. One of Marzi's friends. She had been in Iran. We struck up a friendship on FB. She actually sent me a gift for having been kind to her. One day she ended everything without so much as an explanation. I didn't think that I had done anything offensive, but I sent a note of apology anyway. I never heard anything back. I came away feeling very empty. I had offered her friendship, advice, words of encouragement, etc., but then she ended our friendship without any warning or explanation. We had been conversing with each other on FB for like 4 or 5 years. After she came to the US, a year later, I was dumped as a friend. I never said anything rude or unkind to her. It hurts when you spend years cultivating a friendship and then to have the other person end it without either explaining or saying good bye.

One of the most painful things that ever happened to me is in the 80s when my wife told me to get lost over the phone. We had been together for 5 years at that point. And she did it when my Dad was deathly ill in the hospital. I would have thought that I deserved being told in person. That didn't happen. It left a deep scar inside. I eventually forgave my wife, and we did get married, etc. But in some ways that never did really heal. I kinda freak when a woman does that to me. It reminds me of what my wife did to me over 30 years ago.

A lot my reaction for when our friendship melted down was a reaction to how my wife treated me 30 years ago. I hope you can understand and find it in your heart to forgive me. To be rejected when your father is deathly ill was like being kicked when you're down. I had been a loyal boyfriend, and felt like I was being abandoned when I needed love and support. I remember I burst into tears. When I started crying my dog ran to my side and started licking away my tears. I think if I hadn't had my dog to hug I would have completely fell apart.

Anyway, I hope this explains a lot of my actions. When you quit talking to me it felt like I was reliving my wife dumping me. It's a pain that's never quite gone away, even after over 20 years of marriage. Please forgive me for being stupid when you quit talking to me. I suppose everyone has pain buried in their heart. This is one of mine. Even if you don't forgive me, I hope you at least understand my actions better.

Take care and God Bless.

Aug 6, 2017

To my Dear Friend,

I'm more and more certain it's time to bail out of my current job. With two layers of management quitting it's like having to re-interview for your job. This place never has been fun, although I do like the people I am working with. However, it's just no fun. There's nothing really holding me here, so as soon as I can find another job I'm gone.

2 more weeks till the eclipse. If you are coming here to see it please let me know. I would love to have the opportunity to apologize to you. And I would love to share the experience of seeing the eclipse with someone who I like. Several years ago when I mentioned the eclipse my wife's response was that if she wanted to see an eclipse she could read about it in a book. A few weeks ago she said the same thing again. I didn't even ask her to come and watch it with me. I didn't want to be rejected.

In 2004 I asked my wife to celebrate my birthday with me by doing a 5k with me, and then to go explore where the 5k was at, Sharpsburg, MD, the site of an important Civil War battle. She did the 5k with me, but then got antsy and wanted to go and get some food. This we did. The food was next to an outlet mall, so she wanted to shop. The rest of the day got consumed with me spending my birthday sitting on a bench at the outlet mall while she shopped. Basically my birthday got ruined. I didn't get to explore the Antietam Battle field as I had really wanted to. I later went back by myself, but it felt empty not having anyone to share the experience with.

Anyway, after my wife repeatedly saying that she had no interest in seeing the solar eclipse I didn't even ask her to join me. I was positive that she would get antsy around the time of the eclipse, or find some excuse to start an argument, and make me miss the eclipse, or something like that. It really saddens me that she won't just be polite and share the experience with me because I'm her husband and it's something that interests me. But that's how she is.

If you are coming here I would love to have the opportunity to share the experience with you. I know you like things like this. And I would love to share the experience with one of the nicest persons who I've ever met. I know you probably will ignore me, or will find something sinister in what I'm saying, but I thought I would ask. I would love to share the experience with you, as well as to have the opportunity to apologize to you. I don't understand exactly what happened almost 7 years ago, but I am more than willing to apologize to you.

I hope life is treating you well. Life isn't always fair, but what is important is finding a way to transform something bad into something good. Sometimes it takes a long time to do so, but it can be done.

Take care and God Bless!

July 31, 2017

To my Dear Friend,

Over the weekend I bought a welder's mask. Gotta protect my eyes from the UV when the eclipse comes in 21 days. I'm so stoked about that. I've waited so long for this.

If you come up this way call me. I want to apologize to you so badly. I also want to share the experience of seeing the eclipse with a friend, or perhaps as you put it, someone you merely used to work with. I really want to share this experience with someone I care about. I want it to be special. And if I get the opportunity to share the experience with you it'll be as good as it gets, at least in my opinion.

Anyway, I hope all is well with you. I've never had anything but the highest opinion of you. I still don't understand what happened several years ago, but I am more than willing to give you an apology that is to your satisfaction. I want to make amends to you. I want to make peace with you.

Take care and God Bless!

July 26, 2017

To my dear friend,

On a different note, I took off Aug 21, 2017 to see the eclipse. I'm really looking forward to that. I've known about it most of my life. It's something I've looked forward to for a long time.

If you come up this way call me. I'll gladly meet you at any mutually agreeable place, which basically means any place that is acceptable to you. I sincerely wish to apologize to you. I feel I have a debt to you that I need to fulfill. I don't know exactly how to convince you that I have only pacific motives, but I'll keep trying.

No matter what you decide, no hard feelings. I only have gratitude in my heart for having a nice friend like you. That will never change.

Take care and God Bless.

July 23, 2017

Hi. Well, I need to give myself an honest self-assessment of how well I responded when I was told my brother-in-law died. I really didn't do much better than when you said something bad happened to you. By deeds, I did do better though. Within 24 hours I had a rental car and was driving to CA. I hope that if you haven't done so already that some day you will forgive me for not knowing what to say when you said that something bad had happened to you. Even though it's been almost 7 years now I still feel very guilty about freezing when you said that, and not having enough common sense to ask what was wrong.

Not that I've ever stopped looking, but I will be looking for a job more vigorously. When I call my wife it's obvious that she's been crying. She won't admit it though.

On a different note, where I work, both the factory manager and the engineering manager quit. Not sure what to make of it, but it seems time to go and find a new employer...

Take care and God Bless!

July 20, 2017

I'm back from California. One of the saddest trips I've ever had to make. My brother in law was so nice, and was so young. The world lost a good man. And I lost a good friend. Needless to say I feel sad and heart broken. He died of natural causes. I'm at a loss for words.

I hope all is well with you. Take care.

July 6, 2017

Well, I'll probably be passing through Tulsa this weekend for a horrible reason. My brother-in-law, who lives in the LA area died today. I'll be driving out to go to his funeral. He was only 44. The short story is he died of kidney failure. He was a nice, really sweet man. I'm going to miss him terribly.

I hope all is well with you. Take care and God Bless.

July 4, 2017

I celebrated the 4th my way. I went out and exercised. It was too flippin hot to run the whole way. I mostly walked. But I had fun.

Hopefully I can get a new job soon. The signs of the end are showing. The best is the factory manager only showing up at 8 am on a good day, and leaving at 5 pm sharp. Yesterday, even though he isn't from the US, he acted like he was. He barely showed up. Huge sign.

I'll probably come down in Aug for a weekend. I'll post here. I want to put this behind me.

Take care

June 30, 2017

To my Dear Friend,

I am thinking about coming down in Aug. I'll post here when. I sincerely wish to apologize to you. I positive I owe you an apology, and I'm positive you deserve an apology.

My work is still crazy as hell. It still feels like a sinking ship. All we really need is some investment in some reliable equipment. We've got a good technology. We just need some good equipment to make the product...

As you may be aware on Aug 21st the solar eclipse will be hitting St. Louis. I'm planning on taking the day off. It should be exciting.

Anyway, I'll post here what my travel plans are. I am very hopeful that you will meet me at the Farmer's Market when I go and visit. I want to carry out the duty that I have to you so that we can part ways on peaceful terms. At least that is my hope.

Take care and God Bless.

June 5, 2017

To my Dear Friend,

I had a shall we say not so fun day today. I got off work, rolled down the window to let the heat out and the window mechanism broke. I got home, my wife called me, and our central air seems to have bitten the dust. Under the circumstances I won't be coming down, much to my consternation.

However, I do still wish to apologize to you. I will arrange a different time. I really wanted to come and apologize to you, as I am positive I owe you an apology. I suppose this will wait for another day.

I hope you have a wonderful birthday on Saturday.

Take care and God Bless.

June 4, 2017

To my Dear Friend,

Please accept my invitation to meet at the Farmer's Market on Sat., June 10th, 2017. I sincerely wish to apologize to you and to make amends to you, at least in a small way. I don't believe that apologizing to you will in and of itself completely make amends. But I do believe that it is a start. I don't want to be on bad terms with anyone on this Earth, and I especially don't want to be on bad terms with you. As you may recall in the past you were really sweet and nice and kind to me. I've never forgotten that, and I am still extremely grateful for the kind treatment, the nice compliments, the encouragement when it comes to exercising, and so on. How we got to where we are today I'll never fully understand, but I sincerely wish to say to you to your face that I was very stupid and very wrong. I believe I have a debt to repay to you, and this is a start. And if all I get is you at least listening to me apologize to you I'll be very happy. I sincerely desire to make amends to you. And if all I get is the opportunity to say I'm sorry, that I was wrong, and to ask you for your forgiveness, and get nothing else, I can walk away very happy.

Anyway, I hope you will accept my proposal.

Take care and God Bless!

May 1, 2017

To my Dear Friend,

I hope you will consider meeting me at the Farmer's Market on June 10th. I know it's probably scary for you, but it's scary for me too. It was very painful for me to have someone who I thought liked me and who I had grown to genuinely like and care for because of what I thought and still think were the right reasons, we were two nice people interacting with each other, and to have that nice person all of a sudden shun me and treat me like the worst person on the planet because I tried to say thank you for being nice to me and kind to me by making you that cup of tea was and is very perplexing to me, as well as being very painful. I suppose I may have committed some faux pas, but I don't believe at that point that I had done anything wrong.

Anyway, the point is I know for me this is a whole lot scary. I'm guessing that it is for you too. Nevertheless, I genuinely wish to apologize to you and to at least start on the path of making amends to you. I don't believe that apologizing to you in and of it self will make amends to you, but I believe that it is a good starting point.

I hope you will show up. You can contact me earlier if you wish to.

Take care.

Apr 23, 2017

To My Dear Friend: Again, I have noticed you blocking and unblocking me. I'm not sure what to make of it. While I do want to send you a note, I'm also very mindful of the last message you sent me. Under those circumstances I would be very foolish to contact you first. This is a non-negotiable. I need for you to contact me first. I guess there must be some reason that you wanted to get my attention. However, I'm not a mind reader. I need some direct conversation. Email works, as does here, as does FB, as does Skype, as does Whatsapp.

After saying that, I'll be down in Tulsa the weekend of our birthdays. I'll go to the Farmer's Market. If you want to converse with me, that would be a good opportunity.

Take care and God Bless.

Apr. 20, 2017

To my Dear Friend:

I haven't seen a note from you. I'm not quite sure what to make of it after you blocked and unblocked me. I'll just go to the Farmer's Market on June 10th. If you want to you can meet me there and we can discuss what we need to discuss. And what I am desiring to discuss is to offer you an apology without any expectations of any reciprocation. You will recall 6 years ago you said, "You're not my friend, you're not my colleague, you're merely someone I work with." 3 years ago you reiterated your desire to not have any sort of friendship with me. I had hoped that when you said that 6 years ago you said it in the heat of the moment, but didn't really mean it. Nevertheless, I did hear you the first time. If you've changed your mind on the subject I would consider that to be a very happy occurrence. Nevertheless, I am going into this expecting nothing.

If you want to talk sooner, just contact me. I know you already know how to do so.

Take care and God Bless!

Apr 19, 2017

To my Dear Friend. I have noticed you blocking/unblocking me on FB. I do sincerely wish to send you a note, but I haven't. You may recall the promises you made to me 3 years ago. I very much respect those promises.

As I'm sure you know, my birthday is in June 2 days after yours. I'll probably come down on the evening of June 9th. On the 10th I'll go to the farmer's market on 15th street. I'll be there for. If you want to talk with me you can come and meet me there.

Take care and God Bless!

Apr 18, 2017

To my Dear Friend,

I hope you had a nice Easter. I went and visited my Mom. Anyway, I had a recruiter contact me recently with a job that I believe is a good fit for you. If you want to know more, please contact me. I'm more than happy to share the information. Just contact me.

I respectfully await your replay.

Take care and God Bless.

Apr 6, 2017:

To my Dear Friend,

I have noticed you blocking and unblocking me on FB. I don't know quite what to make of it, but you have my attention. I'm not sure if you are trying to signal me or not, but you do have my attention. I sincerely desire to apologize to you and at least in a small way make amends to you. If we can part ways on peaceful terms I'll be very pleased. I don't know if you are receptive to me apologizing to you, but I sincerely wish to do so. Taken as a whole, you were nothing but sweet and kind to me. How we ended up where we are today I'll never understand, but nevertheless I sincerely wish to say to you that I am sorry that I upset you and to ask you for your forgiveness for the purpose of parting ways on peaceful terms. I am seeking no more than that.

You know how to contact me. A phone call works. Email does too. I may break down in tears of happiness if you do call. But you will get the apology you deserve and that I owe to you. I am very cognizant that I have a debt to you that needs to be fulfilled. And I sincerely desire to apologize to one of the nicest persons who I have ever met for when it comes down to it for being prideful and stupid.

I respectfully await your reply.

Take care and God Bless

I'm a gypsy who would rather be a homebody. My work has taken me quite literally from sea to shining sea and beyond. Currently I'm smack in the middle of the country. I make rust for food (If you want to know what that means, ask! :)) I get to play mad scientist daily!!! I shall we say have plentiful strategic reserves, yet I run. I'm just full of contradictions.

I pursue peace. Peace is my ambition. All you have to do is make me an offer. I will gladly do what it takes to secure peace! :)

Aug. 21st, 2017: There is a total eclipse of the sun that will be passing through St. Louis. I plan on witnessing this event. If you wish to join me, ask!

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Centres d'intérêt

Running.Hiking.Museums.Concerts.Sports.http://www.marathonrookie.com/half-marathon-training.htmlhttp://www.mayoclinic.com/health/5k-run/SM00061http://www.runningplanet.com/training/5K-training-program-advanced.htmlhttp://www.runningplanet.com/training/5K-training-program-intermediate.htmlhttp://www.runningplanet.com/training/5K-training-program-beginning.htmlhttp://www.halhigdon.com/15Ktraining/15Knovsch.htmhttp://www.halhigdon.com/15Ktraining/15Kintsch.htmhttp://www.halhigdon.com/15Ktraining/15Kadsch.htm

  • concerts
  • dining
  • marathon
  • running
  • tv
  • hiking
  • hunting
  • sports

Morceaux de musique, films et livres

My most recent book purchases (I buy faster than I read) (Oct 8, 2016)

Meditations: Marcus Aurelius
Civil War: Lucan (The Roman Civil War 2000 years ago)
Caesar's Chronicles
The Competitive Advantage of Nations, Michael Porter
History of the Ancient World, Susan Wise Bauer
Sold Out, Michelle Malkin,
History of the Medieval World, Susan Wise Bauer,
The Anti-Federalist Papers
Data Analysis and Business Modeling

I have a book fetish!!! The more the better. Am currently working on some classic philosophers (Seneca, as an example). Like him. Here's a quote:"What is my object in making a friend? To have someone to be able to die for, someone I may follow into exile, someone for whose life I may put myself up as security and pay the price as well. ... There can be no doubt that the desires lovers have for each other is not so different from friendship-you might say friendship gone mad. ......Actual love in itself, heedless of all other considerations, inflames people's hearts with a passion for the beautiful object, not without hope, too, that the affection will be mutual." SenecaUnbreak my Heart, by Toni Braxton. A powerful, sad song. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p2Rch6WvPJE&ob=av3eThe summer of 42. Kind of sad... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oYu6HtUxRJsYou are so Beautiful, by Joe Cocker. Just love that song. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=spsVigJCvNUA Hard Habit to Break, by Chicago. ¡Mui Bien! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X6btckmnndY&feature=relatedWalks Like a Lady, by Journey. Way cool. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a9LOfSA5EQwHelter Skelter: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QWuXmfgXVxY&feature=player_embeddedLara's Theme, from Dr. Zhivago. So beautiful. I love it!!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iYDSi3YHcOA&feature=relatedWendy, by the Beach Boys. Seems to go well with a recent experience. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XCEUOfiZsnAWhen a Man Loves a Woman, by Percy Sledge. It most certainly is the truth. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y8raabzZNqwhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BgPwCN0NAAE&feature=related Can't get any better than John Lennon.Ricky Martin. Living La Vida Loca. Applies to a recent experience that I've had. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p47fEXGabaYhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D3bowe-W7ZM This song by Queen is cool.Let it be, by the Beatles: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vHgZCrAoqKkYesterday, by The Beatles. I'm sure just about everyone has had an experience like that: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pGQgd2PT4mw&feature=relatedA good one from the Eagles: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1d8hZtvRPnoBlack Magic Woman, by Carlos Santana http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eaKnRUfh_5ITrisha Yearwood. Gotta love her. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jckKmsCsmioPhil Collins. Against all odds. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wuvtoyVi7vY&feature=fvwrelPhil Collins. Easy lover. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1mu8m8_-tRoThis is Eva Cassidy's rendition of Fields of Gold. I think she blew away Sting's rendition. Enjoy! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8BtJbOPjPfQ&feature=fvstA sad song by Richard Marx. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g0SUG6Fv15Y&feature=relatedEva Cassidy. She died far too young. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Zsq42yKuHA&feature=relatedEva Cassidy doing Time after Time. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SMznNlfLXP4&feature=relatedMartha Reeves and the Vandellas. Nowhere to run. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RQRIOKvR2WMGotta love Ray Charles: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q_rzE8tJQHgThe Police, "Every Breath you Take". Gotta love Sting. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OMOGaugKpzsMarty Robbins: "El Paso" Kinda cool. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GgI5DMVegIkBob Seger. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pk-W_i7Z59IGot this from a friend of mine. I wish I understood the words, but the pictures seem to do a good job of conveying the meaning. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VZDJCexCSws&feature=sharehttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gsYT8YHL-R0 A great line from The Wrath of KhanGotta love the Borg: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dsUHVuCNmXY

The end of Star Trek TNG: Q, as always. Gotta love what he says to Picard. The trial never ends!!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p6kpC_FwcR4

Darth Vader vs. Obi Won. The destruction of a friendship. Sad. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pSwy412nttI

Gold dust woman by Fleetwood Mac.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l35pI8QQPtA

Silver Springs, by Fleetwood Mac. Kind of cool to see the tension between Stevie Nicks and Lindsey Buckingham. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ud2XKt2N8fs

The Road Warrior Trailer. Loved that movie. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gdv5EtZQ6jg

The Borg. Resistance is Futile!!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AyenRCJ_4Ww

More Borg. Resistance is Futile!!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hSCe40HMv1c

And more Borg. Resistance is Futile!!! Gotta love the Borg!!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dsUHVuCNmXY

Journey: Escape: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zUzH-ZKXmxo

The Enemy Below: WW2 sub chase movie: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YOGu9EP7ZUI

The Wizard of OZ. I swear the Wicked Witch of the West is EVIL!!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Leb83bRkXDg

From the Wrath of Khan. Kirk to Spock: "I have been, and always shall be, your friend." Love that movie!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SPBGZRRrEKM&feature=related

Bleed to love her, by Fleetwood Mac. A beautiful song! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z5BZzkWXcwc&feature=bf_next&list=PL927103DDE8C8BE04

This is the theme song to Vikings. I love the main character, Ragnar Lothbrook. He's an absolute scoundral, but damn if he isn't lovable and charming. Good show on The History Channel.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hZ4sDn89P04

Capt. Kirk shouting, "KHANNNN!"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UwKryuazNMk

Journey Walks like a Lady. Live in Maryland.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rl9XcUVPIuQ

Une aventure extraordinaire que j'ai vécue

Getting to live and work overseas! Hsinchu, Taiwan was a blast!!!

Being able to help my Mom through the travail of having her leg amputated. :(

Chasing a bear in Yosemite!!! (no joke)Going to London.Ran a 10k in under 40 minutes (that was a lonnnnnng time ago though. And many pounds!!! :) )Being a crazy idiot and running the 2011 OKC Marathon with a badly injured right calf with a driving rain in the middle of a thunderstorm!!! Not sure which one was crazier. Running with a severely injured right calf, or running in the middle of a thunderstorm!!!Finished my first marathon! Route 66 Marathon, Tulsa, OK, Nov 20th, 2011. 49 more states to go!!!The Grand Canyon. It took my breath away!Halley's Comet!Comet Hale-Bopp (1997)Meteors (many)Taipei 101 (very tall building)What I want to see: The total eclipse of the sun near St. Louis on Aug. 21st, 2017!!!

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I hope to pass on my experiences in life to others, and also learn from others experiences.

Pays que j'ai visités

Japan, Mexico, Puerto Rico, Taiwan, United Kingdom, United States, Virgin Islands, U.S.

Pays dans lesquels j'ai vécu

United States

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